No not really - as time whizzes by the memories of all but the most horrible bits fade away, the times when I was less than 100%, those days/weeks leading up to diagnosis are a blur and only the most memorable spikes remain. In chronological order I think it boils down to this:
(nothing much pre-hospital at all, it just hadn't sunk in or seemed real)
- Sitting with Dr Kar, him telling me it was definitely a pituitary tumour, showing me an MRI scan of my head and pointing to the mass. Saying it would be best if it were removed.....he'd refer me to a neurosurgeon
- Sitting on the hospital bed being admitted, going through the consent form with the registrar and the things that could in theory go wrong with the operation
- Being given a 'nil by mouth' sign by my bed (advanced notice the operation was a reality)
- Being wheeled down a corridor in my bed to the operation
- The anaesthetists trying to get a line in me to put me out prior to the operation
- Waking up after the operation and looking into the face of the nurse in the recovery room (forgotten the name, will never forget the face)
- Finding I had about 5 cannula's hanging out of my body
- Leaving hospital (which was good, but scary)
- Getting diabetes insipidus (bad)
- Getting admitted to hospital a second time with an adrenal crisis (also bad)
- Waking up with an oedema in my legs (definitely not good)
- Sitting back in my living room after the 2nd hospital visit feeling the weakest I have ever felt in my life
- Getting the results of my short Synacthen test confirming I didn't make enough Cortisol and probably never would
- End of 2013, finally feeling that my life was back on track, feeling fitter than I'd felt in ages and hormones balanced (good!)
I do still have my moments of annoyance with my condition and rebellion but I suppose that is only natural.
So the summary of all that is:
- A lot of 'stuff' happened
- It was a long time ago now, water under the bridge
- The NHS totally rocks!
- I've come a long way and I've good health and fitness
- It could be a whole lot worse!
Cheers, Carl
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